What you do comes from what you think. You cannot separate yourself from the truth by giving autonomy to behavior. This is controlled by me automatically as soon as you place what you think under my guidance. Whenever you are afraid, it is a sure sign that you have allowed your mind to miscreate or have not allowed me to guide it.
ACIM – Chapter 2 – IV. FEAR AS LACK OF LOVE – verse 74
I reread this verse in A Course of Miracles this week. It fit so well with Reaction Woman that I decided to write a bit about what this verse says to me. This verse brought to mind all the times I have reacted with fear instead of Love—the amount of energy I have wasted in my life because of fear. I chose to stay in a pattern of fear instead of having another thought, a thought of Love.
During the pandemic, I said I don’t want to get caught up in fear. That didn’t last too long. One night as my husband and I were driving home, we passed a house with at least 50-60 cars in front. They were having a huge party. Did I ask for guidance? No. I got into a state of, “Oh, no, here we go again” I couldn’t let it go. Then the fear came up, and bingo—I was in a tornado with all the emotions bashing around. Instead of sitting with it, pondering, I reacted and started calling friends and telling them the story. Of course, the more I talked about it, the more emotional I became.
There have been times I have been with people and helped calm them down. Asking them: Do you see the blessings? Do you understand you might be done with the pandemic, but it is not done with you? And, of course: It is what it is. If you don’t change your thoughts on anything that you believe has harmed you or will harm you, there is much unnecessary suffering. That is true for many things I have gone through in life.
In my younger years, I had countless circumstances when I panicked and was completely immersed in my problems. In the end, it always worked out—maybe not the way my ego wanted it—but it always worked. The amount of suffering I went through and the amount of suffering I caused others by my reactions was unnecessary. All I needed to do was place what I thought under the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
The times I did put things into the hands of the Holy Spirit, things went smoothly. That did not mean there was no pain, but there was acceptance. I think things resolve faster when you accept, or maybe the acceptance just makes it seem faster because I no longer fight to get what I wanted. How many of us have made plans that have not worked? If we don’t let it go and accept what is, we suffer. Many of us have gone through that over the last couple of years.
When we live under the guidance of the Holy Spirit, not only are we happier, but everyone around us is as well. I believe I am Love in form. Love can change the world. Without living under the guidance of the Holy Spirit and listening to my higher self, my actions will not be love; they will just be reactions. I choose to live through the Love that I am so I can be part of the healing and not the breaking.
Choose Love. Live life to its fullest. As always, thank you for your time.
Theresa Contaxis 