I went on a retreat in Sedona, Arizona two weeks ago, which has led to profound changes in my life. While there, I read some of the books and tried to take that knowledge and integrate it into my life. Although it has been difficult, in just a few short days, the knowledge became a part of me, a part of who I am.
Better said, I remembered who I really, truly am: Love in form, and I could truly live from that divine self, the higher self. This does not mean I have arrived—far from it, but the path seems so clear.
We are all one. The times I judge someone, I am judging myself. Judgement is a poison we have all tasted, and it tastes nasty. It leads to guilt and shame unless we really are living as our authentic self. Few of us live from that place at all times.
I have difficulties with this person I call George. He has hurt a loved one repeatedly. If you heard Screaming Mimi making up scenarios of George’s demise, your jaw would drop. Since the retreat, I am grateful to be able to say I am handling it differently. My higher self began talking to me.
It went something like this: “There will be no peace for you and others if you stay in your anger. Instead, ask: Why am I disturbed? What is in me that needs healing? What is George really crying for?” As the answer came to me, my heart started filling with compassion.”
I wanted MY outcome not Divine’s, unless of course Divine’s answer was the same as mine. Now, I am at peace knowing that God, Divine, Universe has my back. If Mimi doesn’t like the outcome, it doesn’t mean it was not the best answer for me and everyone else involved. Our ego only tells us one side of the story: George is controlling.
All of us have ups and downs. All of us have days when we live our best self and days we don’t. So, if you only see one side, there is only misery; it is time to examine our irrational thoughts. If we don’t, we will stay unhappy. So much of our sadness and resentment is because we listen to Screaming Mimi. I know there have been many times in my life I allowed her to be the ruler instead of my higher self.
The more we live from a place of non-judgement, which is where our higher self resides, peace fills our hearts, and we change our lives and so many others; not just by praying, but our actually presence touches others.
I heard a story of Pope John Paul that I would like to share.
The pope was walking outside the Vatican and a person who lived on the streets approached him for a confession. The Pope sat beside the man and asked him how it came about that he lived on the streets. The man explained that he was a priest in his younger years, but alcohol took his life over. Instead of judging this man, he asked the man to hear his confession. All his shame and guilt drained from him as he cried. That day changed the man’s life. John Paul did not see the beggar standing before him but saw a child of God.
That is how I want to see all my Georges.
For many years, I begged to be changed, to become. The problem with that was I wanted something outside of myself to change me, instead of seeing Christ within.
It is not possible to transform yourself in order to become Christ, but it is possible to simply accept the idea of the Truth and let that be the foundation from which your life express itself. So, you begin to think with Christ, breathe with Christ, envision with Christ.
The Way of Transformation
Take the time, breathe from your heart every day. Let the minutes grow into hours, into weeks and into months and years. I explained this technique in an earlier blog. It calms me and actually fills my heart with peace. This happens because we are not outside Spirit. We are held lovingly in the Center of Spirit.
Be at peace, and have a joy-filled day.
Theresa Contaxis 