When I was little and my parents gave one of my other siblings something, I'd scream “That’s not fair! What about me?” My parents would then give in and give me something as well. This only led to someone else screaming the same thing, “That’s not fair! What about me?” The pie, according to the ego, will never be cut fairly. That is not true when you learn to operate from that part of you that is one with God/Source/Divine.
"Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." [Bible, Matthew 5:10] I have not been looking forward to the last Beatitude because I feel it is so difficult. Who thinks being persecuted is a blessing? Certainly not me. Over the last couple of weeks, I have come into a better understanding of this ‘be happy’ attitude.
We don’t see ourselves as pure and innocent, but that is how God sees us. Like I have said in the past, God fashioned us from Himself/Herself. We are Love, we are Divinity, and we are pure. We hold onto so much shame and guilt. We have problems recognizing this. As we start knowing this is who we are, we start seeing the Divine in everything. Even if someone is reacting from the ego, underneath, the Divine Self is still present and stays pure and innocent. That higher Self knows God, knows the Divine.
In my younger years I knew something wasn’t right. I intuitively knew there had to be more to life than what I was experiencing. That caused frustration, despair, and, finally, depression. One of the reasons I was so frustrated was that I could not understand why I wanted more, why I was hungry for more. I had a wonderful husband, three great children, a great house, and no worries for money. Why wasn’t I content? I could not figure it out.
I am developing my personal plan to save the world. From everything I have learned, I was doing it backwards for many years. I always tried to show others what they should do, but I have learned all I need to do is discover who I truly am, then honor and live it.
In Robert Schuller’s Book, The Be Happy Attitudes, he says, “The word meek is not a good translation in terms of modern usage; it meant something totally different 400 years ago in old England, when the King James translation was done, than it does today. A better modern translation of the verse might be “Blessed are the mighty, the emotionally stable, the educable, the kindhearted, for they shall inherit the earth.” This is the person who will be successful and “inherit the earth.” M-mighty, E-emotionally stable, E-educable, K-kind.
Someone said to me, "Be careful what you pray for; it just might happen." Well, I found out how true that statement is on my 60th birthday. As I was going to bed the night before my birthday, I said a quick prayer: Show me my ego. I woke up the next day, and from the minute I woke up I got to hear Screaming Mimi. As I mentioned in Sunday's post about the second beatitude, Screaming Mimi is what I named my ego.
Live from Spirit; that is what we are part of, everyone and everything. Spirit is in you and me, in the rock and tree. EVERYTHING. Spirit is the same in all. And Spirit is free. IT IS FREE. You don’t buy Spirit or earn Spirit; it is embedded in everything. Spirit is expansive and has no boundaries. You do not need permission from structure or hierarchies to obtain it. Structure was not created by God but by us.
A few years back I went to a cemetery to learn about some interesting women buried there. I learned about an artist, abolitionist, mountain climber, undercover detective, a secretary and friend of Sitting Bull, a violinist, a singer, a Black doctor (who was the third woman to become a doctor in the US and first Black) Let’s not forget the notorious dancer who lifted her skirt above her knees when she danced.
I was searching for happiness for the first thirty years of my life in all the wrong places. I wanted some sense of wholeness, something to help alleviate my pain. I looked in so many directions outwardly, a new house, new car or new clothes. When I got the new item, I was happy, only to find myself with the same underlying feelings of sadness and loneliness within a couple of days. I then increased the pain by adding guilt to the equation for racking up more debt. Yet, I would repeat the same cycle again and again.
Theresa Contaxis 