NEWS FLASH: Reaction Woman has made another appearance!

Years ago while I was meditating, I asked myself the question, “What is the next thing I have to work on?” I had lots of ideas of what was going to come up from the still small voice but never expected what did come up. I heard, “You should learn to ponder and not react.” Well, that was a shock! Of course, Screaming Mimi yelled, “That is not what I want to work on!” However, I knew in my heart I had received the truth.

Fast forward 20 years, and I am beginning to understand this simple statement by another lesson. I was with a person whom I will call George. George and I, for years, have butted heads like two rams. Not a pretty sight. I, of course, blamed George. I felt George never truly accepted me because I was not the person he wanted me to be. I recently got in yet another big disagreement with George, which was upsetting.

The next day, I sat down in meditation and, once again, asked a question. This time, “How should I see this situation to best help both myself and George?” I, once again, got an answer I was not expecting. The still small voice said, “You do to George the very thing you have had a problem with all these years. You want George to be a certain way, and you judge him because he is not, just as you have felt judged.” That hit home. I knew it was the truth.

I then sat and said the forgiveness prayer over and over again until it resonated with my whole being. I had to forgive myself for how I treated him. All these years, I was the judge and jury, and I pronounced him guilty. Through this process, I learned what it truly means to ponder. To ponder, you take the time to learn about the ego (Screaming Mimi), whose actions and behavior lack light. It is then that you can bring light into a situation. When I recognized my part in our relationship and took responsibility, I felt lighter.

I have kept George in a prison cell. I would open the prison, at times, to free him, but I would get the key and lock him up again as soon as I made another judgment. All of us have been judged. It is painful. However, we all have judged someone or something. We give it back, and that is no way to bring peace into this world.

With that said, a new superhero has been birthed – Pondering Woman. Pondering Woman understands that each time someone reacts (or should I say re-acts the same way over and over again), pondering will lead to the awareness that they have not forgiven something within themselves. That certainly happened to me. I thank that wonderful, still, small voice for everything I learn.

May your day be filled with awakening moments. Blessings.